A few scattered thoughts

 God's love is so ingenious and victorious that I find God is willing to turn the world around to get me facing in the right direction- Richard Rohr

I (Katie) must say I find this truer than ever since we have made our big move to Canada. Because I am an American citizen finding a job has been more challenging than I expected, and yet I have to consider this a blessing. This has left me with much time to meditate, and reflect, which is something I have felt called to do for the past year. Since my first trip overseas, it seems God has been directing me in two different ways, 1) to live more simply and 2) to sit down and rest. Both of these areas have appealed to me, but have been so difficult for me to accomplish while the world around me encourage other things. But now it appears God, in his grace, has led me to a place of stillness.  I am finally  where I feel free to be free, and I believe I am changed because of it.

This transformation has been not because of my knowledge, or study, or even teaching of Christ, but because of my willingness to finally come vulnerably before him, understanding that I am not in control, and also that I have no understanding of who he is. It is easy and safe to spend our lives trying to be right so that we do not have to face our own fears, but I have come to believe that a life lived in fear cannot be lived in love. And so I had to choose.

I chose to change.

I leave you with a few more words from Richard Rohr's book Naked Now: 


You might think change means losing your sense of order or risking making mistakes including a mistake about your belief in God. Yet even that is okay, because the deadening alternative is much worse. The Holy One does not really need your loyal verbal protection.